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vibrantabyss ([personal profile] vibrantabyss) wrote2008-10-05 12:31 pm

And in this moment I am happy...

Eight years now.

Last night was the first time I haven't stayed home, turned the lights off, and wallowed in self-indulgent misery.

I motivated and went out to a social gathering, actually chatting with folk and mostly being carefree.  I laughed, I drank, but with no intent to get trashed (or anything close to that).  I introduced myself to some people, chatted freely, actually worked on making myself part of the social fabric.  I drank more after I got home, but only one, and only because I was feeling... content.  I listened to sad tunes, but did not loop them endlessly.

Today I woke up feeling, if not cheery then at least at peace.  And I will go out into the world and be a part, rather than apart.

Even if just for a moment, even just to see I am better... I wish you were here.


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